Alright:

This is why I haven't been blogging, My horoscope today:

You need to give a lot today and even if you get to celebrate a holiday with your family, the day still might take its toll. You may feel as if you are treading water while the current keeps carrying you backward, but this is just a temporary effect of Mercury retrograde in your sign. Luckily, you know a thing or two about patience and, fortunately, it will be rewarded soon enough.

I'm in a one step forward two steps back rut and I don't want to complain about it so I don't blog about it.

This is why. I'm sorry.
-me.

pinky promise

This is me, making a promise to people that like reading my blog that I will post more.

Pinky Promise

::birthday blog to come...::

Battle

Emotion, its one of the hardest things to control.

San Diego

I am on Spring Break this week, and my parents wanted to spend a day with me. My idea of of a good time was to go to the San Diego Zoo! I had sooo much fun, and I love taking pictures of animals. They were ridiculously active so I got some great shots. I don't have a fancy camera.. but occasionally I get pictures that look like they can go on postcards, no flaws... Here are some that I love. Also I didnt realize how they loaded, so it goes from latest in the day until the first part. Enjoy =].

Big Daddy

Watching from the shadows

Keeping an eye

Hungry Mama

Sleepy Lizardy thing.

Me + Hippo = AWESOME

He really wanted that leaf

Mama in deep thought

Auntie was babysitting

By far my favorite picture

He smiled for me

Always the first thing you see!

Those are my pictures, let me know if you like them... I've been seriously thinking about taking photography. waste of time? what do you think?

Time.

An anniversary, a tradition, anything that makes you think of a day one year ago. Today is a kinda anniversary for me. One year ago I began the biggest growing experience of my life so far, and I'm looking at what has happened through out the year. My old relationships have grown, I found out who were my true friends and my three M's were there to save me from sinking too far. I also had people who were just friends have now become really close to me. I have lost 30 pounds and my hair is 8in shorter. I feel like I am in such a better place but I am also a completely different person. I've actually dated (good and bad) and well I'm happy with where I am right now. This time next year I'll be in my last semester of school and just about ready to get a job and move out on my own.. 365 days until that comes, I'm thrilled for whats next.

I wanted to thank and tell all of you that I love you and I'm grateful for every single one of you.

<3

Oh Mmm Gee

I've been so busy! Holy crap. I can never find the time to sit down and type. I feel like I'm always going going going work, school, study groups, etc. Here are some of the fun things that I have done since I posted last.

March 7th I went to an Irish fair in the boones of Riverside.. but I had SOO much fun!

When we were there I didn't drink any Guinness but I did see these adorable "sheepdogs" in action, I was surprised I got these two to turn and look at me!

Here are some action shots:

These were all the puppys they are all turned the same way because they are ready to work and are following the sheep!

My stupid camera died after this but I got to see guys use bag pipes and saw a bunch of baby boys wearing kilts! It was adorable. I can't wait to go back with my parents next year.

Cut to this Friday the 13th.

I got to go see Joel Mchale, he does the show called the soup. I went with Jon and we got there early got some CPK myyy favorite and then headed to the show. I was brave and wore heels and don't regret it at all! The coolest thing that happened was when we got there we had these seats:

Then these old people next to us said they had some tickets for "down there" and were wondering if we wanted to trade seats, we agreed thinking that they were front teir seats.. no no.. they were SO much better!! We moved HERE:

Woo!! so this totally made the night.. we watch Joel and then headed home, I had a rockin migraine so the night ended there.. I was also babysitting a dog so I had to keep him fed and happy!

So that was my month, oh yeah. I cut my hair ;)

Enjoy the pictures. I promise I won't take so long next time.

"I" tag.

Missy did it and I’m bored.

I am: home alone on Valentine’s Day and I’m not sad about it.

I have: wonderful friends and a happy family

I have no idea: what I am doing with my life right now, I’m just going through the motions.

I Am: kinda confused with my feelings.

I Think: wayyy too much.

I Know: I’m stubborn. I feel my way is always the best way.

I Want: to graduate and have lots of friends and a developed sense of self.

I Have: a lot of cool things. I like technology and I try to stay kinda with the pack, its hard without having money.

I Dislike: ugly people. Haha jk. I don’t like people who are rude to me at Starbucks. I’m human too.

I Miss: a couple things.

I Fear: being alone.

I Feel: content right now.

I Smell: success.

I Crave: shopping and chocolate when I’m sad.

I Cry: really never. I look at it as a sign of weakness cuz every time I’ve cried I feel super venerable. The last time I sobbed was in Marley and Me, and it wasn’t the movie that made me cry.

I Usually: try to make my mom and dad happy. I’m under their house so I listen to their rules even though I think a one am curfew is super dumb.

I Search: facebook all the time. I enjoy seeing how people’s lives have changed since we’ve known each other. Normally I wouldn’t even speak to them in public thinking they wouldn’t remember me. But if they are getting married or pregnant it makes my day better. I enjoy life changing events.

I Wonder: what’s going to happen to me in a year when I graduate.. I have a plan. It’s kinda at a stand still right now.

I Regret: nothing. It makes me who I am… although it frustrates me that I care so much about stupid stuff that I should’ve let go of years ago. Like my senior prom.

I Love: being in love. I feel that I am complete when I’m in love. But I’m growing; I’m okay being alone… I enjoy myself, I’m funny.

I Care: about everyone and what they think. It hurts my feelings when people think bad things about me. I want everyone to like me.

I Always: run up the stairs a little faster at night when its completely dark.

I Worry: about work, school, and relationships daily.

I Am Not: a social butterfly or a homebody and I am not a night owl or a morning person.. I adjust my life so I am everything.

I Remember: being really really really happy, I can’t wait until I am that happy again.

I Believe: in Luck. Coincidence. Fate. Whatever you want to call it… I see things I shouldn’t see; things happen to me that I would never wish upon anyone else.

I Dance: all the time. I like busting moves when I am happy. When I am dancing I am either REALLY happy or semi intoxicated.

I Sing: to everything, I blare my music in my car and sing at the top of my lungs; I feel better after.

I Don't Always: do what I should. I fall back into old habits because it makes me comfortable and I would rather be comfortable than not.

I Argue: with myself a lot. I do things I shouldn’t do and I get into fights with myself over whether or not it was dumb or not. Normally.. it was dumb.

I Write: when I am upset. I have a journal I wrote last year, I refuse to read it… I feel bad for that girl and I’ve moved on from those sad days.

I Win: things I shouldn’t. I won poker without even knowing what I was doing.

I Lose: myself in my thoughts…

I Wish: that it was 2010 already.

I Listen: to music and my friends. I realized the other day, I ask for advice but I give some pretty damn good advice too.

I Don't Understand: unhappy people. Sure everyone has a bad day, but think of something or do something that makes you happier and stop complaining. I do this by going to Disneyland.

I Can Usually Be Found: at Fullerton, Starbucks, Disneyland, or at home in my room in front of my computer.

I Am Scared: of getting in a bad car accident. I’ve seen too much already.

I Forget: names but not their Starbucks drinks. Go figure.

I Am: satisfied with my life right now.

I tag: anyone who is bored like me and wants to do it!